DUDE

New medication is kicking my ass - forget eating, I can't even stay awake.

Memorial Day

I am going to try and remember to eat well - probably going to the movies and need to stay away from the popcorn!

Lost a little weight - still need to do more.

Blocked!

So this site is now blocked from work, so my ability to post is a little hindered.  Set a new goal with my trainer and my Mom helped me stay healthy for dinner.

Baby steps...

Since it doesnd't work..

I am going to make myself truly accountable to you all.

Lost 1.1 lb from Sunday

I'm Back!

Ok, so I think I have gained all the weight back - and the only excuse I have is that I was stressed and I gave up - totally!

That being said, the major drama in my life (sort of) ended yesterday.  My bigger problem is, how do I keep stress from totally derailing me?

On that note, I'm super behind and need to get to work!

Great ideas

Thanks Kathleen!

I have not been doing very well - between my debilitating allegies and work crap, I need to refocus (yes, again...)

Chemisty...

I had been doing SO good, but I need some help - when I get SUPER hungry I fall off the wagon.  Anyone have some ideas of snacks I can keep in my car that won't melt?

So, less than a week on Chemistry and I've already had one date and need to schedule 2 more.  The one date was ok - he talked about himself the entire time which was irritating seeing as I am the most interesting person I know...

BUT - he did email me the next day, so I won!  We'll see if we go out again - 1.  I want to talk about me; 2.  He's sort of shy, so he'll have to man up and ask me out again.

Not huge interest in any of the other guys, but hopefully I'll have a crappy date I can 411 for you all!

Let the Games Begin!

Ok, so its on like Donkey Kong - am going through the "guided communication" with 9 folks - some scary, some not...

As for the weight lose - same problem different day - I do GREAT during the day until something come up at work in the afternoon and it goes to shit.

ARGHHHHH - what is my problem?

Anyhow - my tag-line is:  "Nazis are Bad"

The Ellis women decide

I had a three way tie, until I made my Mom and Kacy vote - now the clear winner is Chemisty.com.  Ok - now the fun begins - help in the headline...

Any and all suggestions are welcome.

God I hate these things...

Leaving Las Vegas

Soo - I'm at the airport waiting to go home and trying to get some work done.  I wasn't very good - either at gambling or staying healthy - although I did go swimming while I was here.

I'm pretty tired and have lots to do before I leave for Texas on Monday - so I'm signing off for now.

Fun???

Seems like its been forever since I've had that - after a week of ups and downs, I'm off to Vegas.  Wish a few moe things were settled, but whatever...

Interesting...

So only 6 people have voted, but chemisty and cougarlife are in the lead.  I find this interesting seeing as I have no chemistry and I tend to go older....

But what do I know? - that's the fun of taking this out of my hands and putting it into yours!

As for the diet - had some VIPs in town to entertain, so I could have done better - but as opposed to focusing 100% on what I am eating, I am trying moderation and "living better"

Actually someone asked me something interesting recently - "What do I want to achieve?".  I actually could not come up with anything - there are millions of things I want to do, but not so much I need to achieve (I could say weight loss, but I feel like I need to be happy with who I am while I work to be HEALTHIER - not stress eating would go a long way).

Anyhow, I came to the conclusion that I have achieved a great deal fairly young - so what do I want?  To let life happen to me and not worry about my next achievement.

They also asked what animal did I want to be and why - Tiger of course.  Because of their big paws.

This really did not seem to satisify - they wanted to know something more concrete about the nature of tigers that I wanted to emulate.  So even though I want to be a tiger for the big paws, I added that they are pretty, mean and like to swim.  Rrrrrrawwwllll!

Anyhow - VOTEY VOTE - website is:

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/2FQFKJF

No more excuses!

So, a great driver of my stress has been my work-load - well I finally received approval for a Manager - this is SUCH a relief - I finally feel like I can handle my life.  Its amazing how something as simple as this can help my energy level!

So, no more bad day excuses, no more my job suks excuses, no more if I'd only married rich excuses.

On that note, I was screwing around the other night and came across a whole host of milionaire match-making sites.  Seriously - this is big business in Cali.  If I ever do decided to go back onto the online thing, it might be worth considering.  Don' get me wrong, I really don't care how much anyone makes, but I've got to believe that the HS graduate working on a factory line is not going to spring for the prime rib.

Is that snobby?  I do only fly first class...

Actually, one of the most noticiable differences between DC and LA is that my success does seem to intimidate men.  I guess in DC they are used to ball-busters.  Here, its all about bra-busters.  Women seriously looking for their sugar-daddy.

Oh - and I have not even gotten into the "cougar" sites.

Tell you what - in the interest of keeping things intersting - I'm going to institute a little reader voting.  You decide which one of these I should join, then (once I do), I can entertain you all with how crappy they are:

1.  chemistry.com
2.  Match.com
3.  searchingmillionaire.com
4.  cougarlife.com
5.  largeandlovely.com

I encourage you to do some research prior to voting.  I will also take other suggestions.  This is fun!  I've never done this with the sole reason to report on the crappiness of it.  If you don't want to post on my blog, feel free to email me directly.

The Monster of Cookies...

So I went to my favorite salad place last night and I was salivating over a cookie!  I ALMOST CAVED!!!  But....there is this picture of Wynn and me on the couch asleep - it would be the most beautiful picture ever if I didn't look like a beluga whale wearing a crimson shirt and a black skirt.

I have to stay strong!  I am feeling better too...

I did quit Jenny, though - my new plan is all yogurt, all the time - then, when I go out, I am allowed to eat SENSIBLY...

It seems to have been working (thusfar)

Ok, Ok...

I thought no one was reading them, so I stopped.

Things are going well - kepping healthly and working out - will be in Vegas over the weekend, so that will be a test...

Is anyone looking???

I thought that no one was reading, so I stopped posting - I guess I was wrong!

Done really good this week - in FTW and eating mostly yogurt - NO ICE cream!

YAY!!!

I did have some cookie cake today, though...

Soo....

That was an April Fools Day joke - I'm still plugging along...,

Screw it - I'm getting the Lap Band

Tired of this crap - have an appt. next week.

Sorry Mom!

Didn't mean to make you mad...

Especially since I might be living with you soon.

Let me explain - part of what I have to do when being on a "diet" is examine what makes me eat.  Its not boredom.  Its not hunger.  Its not even the overwhelming desire to get a seat-belt extender on an airplane - its that at the end of the day I am totally stressed out and don't care - about anything.  My heath, my life, my cat, my barbies, Fish Wrangler - ANYTHING.  So I figure - fuck it - might as well just eat what I want cause everything sucks anyways (this is usally the time that my brain TOTALLY forgets all of the sacrifices and hard work I have done over the past 2 weeks and reverse all the progress in one day by eating a pint of ice cream, 2 brownies, turkey sandwich, hot dog, chex mix, Reese's Stix and maybe a Kit Kat IN ONE SITTING!)

Who does that?  Seriously, I feel like I am going to explode and have heart-burn all night - but while I am shoveling food in my face, it is a forgotten fact.

Anyhow, my point, if stress and work are my "triggers", then how can I fix that?  Answer?  I have a meeting in about 1 hour to try and get the resources I have needed for over 1 year.  If I cannot get what I need, then I will seriously look at other options for my life, because I refuse to continue in a job that is killing me.

Now, don't get all excited, I'm not going to quit today, but if my job cannot make the same committment to me as I am making to them, then I will seriously focus on other options and work very hard to execute a career strategy that does not stress me out so I have to take 2 Xanax to fall asleep.

I'm sure that living with my parents at 35 will help reduce my stress - HA!

Hope to have good news tomorrow.

Whatever!

Way to support Mom!

I know - I'm such a loser - I get hungry and its LITERALLY like I can't get food fast enough and I can't stop eating.  And this is NOT an excuse or lie - when I get like this, I totally forget all the reasons and tricks to keep me from eating.  Then, when I'm done eating, I remember - "oh, I should have waited 30 minutes, then given myself the treat if I still wanted it" or "Remember how hard you worked out and how you sacrificed, don't ruin it"

I remember these things about 5 minutes after I'm done eating, and unless I want to go bulemic, I just sit there berating myself.

Sorry - this one's whiny....its just hard when my own brain seems to be working against me

GRRRRRRR!!!!!!

I'm working out, being good and GAINED 3 lbs.  What's up with that????  My trainer keeps telling me its because I'm gaining muscle but this SUCKS!

My Head hurts!

And its days like this that are hard to stick to the diet.  But - I'm a wash even after all my bad eating - which is good.  BUT - I keep thinking how much MORE I could have lost if I had just stuck to it.

So I am going to stick to it like GLUE!

My ring fits!

That's right, I had gotten so fat that my grandmother's ring stopped fitting - but I can get it on again!

Slow, but visible and signifigant progress!

Thanks for the kick in the ass

One Day down

A billion to go.  When does this "lifestyle" change kick in?

I still suck

Back on Track!

Work keeps on trying to get me to travel, but I NEED to stay here and focus!!!

Either that for find a sugar daddy.  But how am I supposed to do that if I'm fat?

Vicious, vicious cycle...

Back on Track!

Work keeps on trying to get me to travel, but I NEED to stay here and focus!!!

Either that for find a sugar daddy.  But how am I supposed to do that if I'm fat?

Vicious, vicious cycle...

Since nobody has...

Kicked my large ass into gear, I'm still fucked.

What is my Problem????

I try so hard in Rome, and then come back here and am so tired I eff it all up!!!

I need someone to kick my large ass into gear!

Inspiration

My new friend Nancy (props to Craig for the intro) sent this to me and it is AWESOME!

2006 Disclaimer: This is not smug lecturing or advice or a dietary Sermon on the Mount. It's just a wee list of lessons learned over the last five years. And so many of em took almost all that time to learn. I'm a bit slow.


Disclaimer Update 2010: Yep. Still learnin'!

• Laugh at yourself. Especially when you screw things up!

• Don't compare your progress to other bloggers, instead be inspired by them (ie. steal their ideas!)

• Try to reduce the self-loathing. I'm not saying you have to look in the mirror and chant, "YOU ARE A WINNER!", but it really doesn't help to stand around yelling at your thighs.

• Remember that the weight loss industry exists to make money, whether it's Weight Watchers or Slimming Magazine or the CSIRO or Dr Gillian McKeith. Even though they all help in their own ways, they don't have all the answers and they really want you to buy the Choco Crisp Bars or send away for the Pilates DVD. Take bits and pieces from what they tell you and clobber it together to make your own way of doing things. Don't let anything be a substitute for thinking for yourself.

• Don't put things off until you Get Skinny. Try something crazy and new. If you fail, just don't blog about it!

• Deal with The Past.

• Look at the Big Picture or look at the Little Picture. Whichever is easiest to stomach at the time!

• Don't disappear up your own arse. Losing weight seems to bring a lot of introspection and lightbulb moments, but don't let this journey take over your life.

• Accept that you are moody, inconsistent and full of contradictions. What worked for you yesterday may shit you to tears tomorrow, and for no reasonable reason!

• Never eat lentils before you do squats or lunges.

• Just because you think everything is about your weight, don't assume everyone else sees it that way. Often other people are much better at seeing past your fat than you are.

• Just because you lose weight doesn't mean your old fears and problems will disappear. Example: If you were scared of rollercoasters when you were 350lb you may still shit your pants at the thought of them 160 pounds later!

• Fage Total Yogurt is the best thing to come out of Greece since Plato.

• Things won't change overnight. It takes time, trial and error to forge a healthy lifestyle and figure out what works for you. The difficulty of this task increases by tenfold increments depending on how many times per week you used to visit McDonalds Drive Thru.

• Don't let the fear of loose skin, belly rolls or flabby arms stop you. Do you think Oprah worried about her bingo wings? No. She just flap-flap-flapped and flew away to world domination!

• If you're still worried about your flabby arms, move to Scotland. You can get away with long sleeves for about 364 days a year.

• Even when you royally screw up – over and over and over again – you can pick yourself up again. As long you never stop believing you will get there in the end.

It was Hard!!!

The longer I stayed, to stay on the diet.  We did (however) walk EVERYWHERE!!!  But I'd be lying if I said I stuck to the diet.  That being said, I weighed myself and it APPEARS to be a wash, but we won't really know until next week.

But, I'm now back, have no travel planned for over a month and its time to shine!

When in Rome...

Eat cold Jenny Craig food.  That's right, I packed the food and had cold, pre-packaged Pasta Primavera last night.  Lunch today is a cold Chicken corn chowdar.

The 2 things that keep me motivated:  1.  Saving money; 2.  My bag was 50 lbs and I'm NOT bringing the food back!

Forgot to tell you all - FINALLY lost 10lbs!!!

When in Rome...

Eat cold Jenny Craig food.  That's right, I packed the food and had cold, pre-packaged Pasta Primavera last night.  Lunch today is a cold Chicken corn chowdar.

The 2 things that keep me motivated:  1.  Saving money; 2.  My bag was 50 lbs and I'm NOT bringing the food back!

It catches up with you...

So I eat cold food in SAT trying to lose weight, eat like crap over the weekend and am happy cause I STILL lost weight.

Until yesterday...despite being good all week, it caught up with me.

Like Mike Myers.

No need to worry - everything's good

I got upgrade to Rome!  Yay!  Sadly these are things I worry about.  I am going to bring my Jenny food and eat it cold like I did in San Antonio (cold Chicken Noodle soup - NOT good!).  Hopefully that will keep me away from the pizza, pasta, and other awesome Roman food!

Surprise!

So even after falling off the wagon this weekend, I still most some weight!

That helps keep me motivated!

Now, how I'll stay good in Italy is another question...

No New Tale to Tell

So I had a BAD weekend - felt like crap and used it as an excuse to eat.  In fact, thought I'd lay out all of my various excuses to eat badly:

Had a bad day
Had a good day
Feel Sick
Feel Fat
Feel skinny
Traveling
Haven't seen that ice cream flavor before
tired


Pretty much ANYTHING can be turned into an excuse to eat - so no more excuses!

My Mouth Hurts!

Had five cavities filed today - even if I wanted to eat I couldn't!!!

My throat hurts...

So I went a LITTLE off the diet to get a Chai Tea Latte (skim)...

Other than that - I have been SOOOOO good.  I have not eaten a SINGLE thing offered at SIA and have not gone out once.

Those of you who know SIA know how hard that is!

I LOVE mini-corn dogs...

I blame American...

So - my lugguge (containing all my food) was lost...

I TRIED to be good - and pretty much did ok, until the night.  I was tired, stinky and in need of my clothes...

On the bright side - bag came, I stuck to the plan and worked out today.

BTW - let's talk about how awesome it is to present to 300 people in something you have worn for 48 hours, not brushed your teeth and have ZERO make-up on.

Did I mention they have your face on a large screen.

It was AWESOME!!!

Asi Asi

I was SOOOOOO super hungry yesterday, so I went a LITTLE off plan.  A little too much cheese, pretzels and buckeyes.

ARGH - I need more self-control for when I'm super hungry!

Tips, por favor!

Unexpected Turn...

So I flew to DC yesterday because Amy's grandfather died.  I packed all my food and Amy has been awesome support the diet!

That's about it....

I do not want to be a mother!

So I have a new employee who is not "cutting the mustard" - something that she has been made aware of...

So - if you had been put on notice by your management, would you do any of the following?

1.  Spend an excessive amount of time getting a doctors waiver so you can fly first class?
2.  Show up late to a meeting I have called because you were getting a health screening by the company (NOT mandotory - optional "wellness" service they provide"
3.  Send me an email asking if she needs to catch the last flight out to return as it would cause her to get home after midnight, and since she is traveling on Sunday, may she offset her time?

This sent me OVER the edge.  Classic recipe to eat.  BUT instead, I kept my training appointment, pretended that I was stomping on her face or punching her with every move and ate well.

Also, I weighed myself RIGHT after I ate, and I still showed a loss of .9 lbs.

For some reason I am SUPER DUPER hungry today, but I'm going to fight it!

Get Loose Now!

So I stayed late at work and didn't work out when, but I kept on track eating wise, and although the scale does not show it, my clothes are looser and people haver commented!  Yay!

Last night though, I would have torn about my house for something substantive - all I could eat was jello and that was not cutting it.  I finally settled on a few pieces of cheese, which gave me the toots all night.

Serena was not amused.

Busy, busy!

Been trying to post all day and have been SUPER busy.  Hope to get home tonight in time to do some swimming, but we'll see.

Sorry - crunched for time and boring today/

Balance????

Ok, so I GUESS the blog is serving its purpose seeing as I MAJORLY fell off the wagon, and preceded to get mad at every member of my family as they all asked me how I was doing.  Part of me hates that it seems like that's all they talk about, but the other part of me knows it comes from a good place and is trying to keep my accountable.

You see, I have a problem with balance - not only when I walk, but in my life in general.  I am a total extremist - its all or nothing with me!  So, I had a majorly difficult (not in a bad way) few days at work, and I was working out several times a day.  Then I crashed.  2 days at home, eating badly and watching TV.  Fortunatly I have not gained weight, but I have not lost any either.  I HAVE caught up on Lost, so there is a brightside.  My brother called on Sunday to make sure I didn't fall into the Valentine's blues - which was funny because I was back on track at that point and had not even thought about it.  Seriously, I REALLY like being alone (I know this is impossible for non-alone people to believe, but its true).  I was not sad in the slightest I did not have a "Valentine".  I get to hold my own remote.

So my brother said that he doesn't care how much I weight and if I were a "Jolly Fat person" he would be fine, except I not happy.  That, and I might get thrown off of Southwest Airlines (another reason to fly American).

Anyhow, my trainer helped me come up with a balanced work-out schedule, so hopefully I don't wear myself out there...

Work is another matter - so keep yelling at me and asking me how I'm doing.  I may not like it, but its working.

That makes me feel better

I went a little crazy eating - but then my trainer reminded me that I had worked out everyday - and I fit into a jacket I had not been able to get into a month ago!

Baby steps~

You've Got a Long Way to Go!

Yes, that is what someone told me when I told them I'd lost 8lbs.

Talk about support!

Oh well, I'm not doing it for them - I'm doing it for me!

The Ultimate!

So I saw a commercial for the Ultimate Cheeseburger from Jack in the Box and I actually started to salivate like a dog!  You would have thought it had been MONTHS since I had eatedn anything.

But, I was good (but I swear - when I hit one of my goals, the ultimate is SO getting in my belly!) and -IT PAID OFF!!!

8 LBS!!!!  I have been working my ass off, but I am finally seeing some results and that helps.  My Wii Fit age yesterday was 27.  It was pretty funny watching my fat Mii do a back flip!

I did go a little crazy last night - I ate a Jenny Cheesecake, Smores bar and Chocolate Chip bar all in one sitting.  No proud of myself, but at least I stuck with Jenny food (the Cheesecake is 150 lbs and AWESOME from AWESOME town!)

On a totally unrealted note, for all of my DC friends who follow this - I drove to work today with my moonroof open.

"Ha, Ha" - Nelson Munce

Wrong, Wrong, Wrong

My Wii says I've gained 1.5 lbs. - but I have been SUPER good.

Maybe I just need to poop

My New-found Love

Its Yogurt.

That's right - I LOVE yogurt!

Needless to say a report will soon be issued that states how bad yogurt is for you....

I'll take it

So I weighed myself and I've lost 2lbs since Jan. 6th - not a whole lot, but it beats gaining 2 pounds!  I was also sort of surprised cause on Jenny all I seem to do is eat, but I guess I'm eating the right things.

On that note - I had a first.  I ate yogurt and did not throw up.

This is huge - and (in my mind) is a pretty good indication of my commitment if I'm willing to eat yogurt!

Super stressful at work, but with my computer broken I can't work at home, and I seem to be a little bit saner.

My the Schwartz be with you - Yogurt (Spaceballs)

PS - before my cousin Ben lost weight he used to look like Barf from Spaceballs.  NOT John Candy - specifically Barf.  We called him Big Ben.  Captain Originality reporting for duty!

Ok, Mom..

So my Mom said that my blog needed to be more positve and focused on weight loss - god love Mom's - only people who would critique a jounal!

But, she is right, and on that note, I had a GREAT weekend.  Worked out, ate well and am feelng good.  I have not weighed myself, but my clothes seem to fit better, so that's a start.

I know a good deal of any success I may have is that I have "come out of the dieting closet" and asked you all for help - it is appreciated and any success I may have is due to your all's encouragement!

WHHHHHYYYYYY!!!!

My computer has crashed, my boss is an idiot, I hate my staff, my apartment is a disaster area.

I want to go home.

If I needed reasons to stick with it, today's the day...

Eh...

Ok, I had the warm nuts - but other than the flight I stuck to the plan.

My Dad says that if I lose weight I am smart enough to be president of a Fortune 500 company.  I told him, that seemed like a good reason to keep the weight on...

So it looks like my Mom wants Chipotle today - so challenge on....

I'm worried about Warm Nuts

So I started Jenny today, and while my breakfast scramble was a fair size, my Turkey Club panini was more of a minini.

But the real challenge?  Three flights in the next 6 days.

Sitting in first class
Watching the peons behind
I anticipate my warm nuts
The pistachios and cashews I hunt to find
Then the main course
A burger, pasta or chicken?
Will they have my selection
No doubt it will be finger lickin!
Then the smell - that beautiful smell
Are they sugar, chocolate chip or oatmeal?
No matter - on American I'm a VIP
They'll give me one of each, its a sure deal
Of this I must divorce
Or need a seat-belt extender
Could there be anything worse?
THIS IS WHAT I MUST REMEMBER!

JENNNNNNYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

First and foremost - thanks to all my friends who have been diligently checking this and telling me to blog more!  I really appreciate your support and am NOT happy to report my progress (or lack-there of).  Reality?  I've been good some days and bad others.  I just can't seem to get into the groove of actually losing weight - I don't know why.  But, I'm no quitter, so per my Mom's prodding, I have joined Jenny Craig.

Actually, I subscribe to Consumer Reports (BEST $40 EVER - I'm happy to share my loggin and password if anyone wants it) and for the first time Jenny is shown to be more successful than Weight Watchers.  Since Weight Watchers hasn't been working, I'm going with this.

BUT - can we say EXPENSIVE!!!!  Holy cow!  And my Mom keeps warning me about the size of the portions.  I'm picturing a turkey sandwich the size of an M&M.  Yum!

But maybe spending this money is what I need to get my fat ass in gear!  So friends - I REALLY need your support in understanding if I join you for a meal, but don't eat, seeing as I had my oh-so-filling Turkey sandwich M&M.

I get the meals tonight, so I'll "officially" start tomorrow - when I fly to Dallas for a shower and then onto DC - great timing right?  But when is the timing ever good?

On the bright side, I'll have my family there to help keeping me from eating a Manchaca burrito at 11pm.  And hopefully I'll have more willpower than to tell them to Frak off cause I'm eating it anyways!

Also think I'm going to have my trainer take a picture of my in my bathing suit.  I'll label it properly so you don't confuse it with a beached whale.

Ok, back to work....

Jenny and I are like peas and peas, I guess.

And I forgot my mascara!

So I'm in DC and I haven't done great - but I have not done horribly either.  Problem is - its restaurant week!  Best restaurants in the city and you get a fixed menu for $20.  Duck Fat fries!  DUCK FAT FRIES!  I had to TRY them!  But the bright side is that I did just TRY them - they were not as good as I might have thought...

I also did some yoga yesterday and walked to my meeting.  Tomorrow I've got a racquetball game scheduled and I hope to keep my eating in check...

One step forward...

So I had a bad weekend - mostly dealing with work, but it carried over into my being a slug on the couch - now I am paying the price - back is KILLING me!

Things are better now, and I hope to re-focus...

Horoscope

Good I hope today's is true!

You may be frustrated by what seems like a lack of progress, but rest assured -- success is just around the corner. Even the most daunting obstacles are about to melt away.

Getting Better!

Another good day yesterday - ate well and went swimming.  I'm still SUPER stressed (and my meeting has been moved to NEXT week!), but I am trying to handle it well.  I'd feel a great deal better if my stupid travel to DC would get approved - I am supposed to leave on Wed. and I have crap to take care of - just because I don't have kids does not mean I don't have things to take care of in my personal life.

Ok, good, but boring news - thanks again for all the support

A Wash....

Don't have a lot of time before my next meeting, but...

My meeting was postponed until tomorrow, so I'm on PINS AND NEEDLES until then (speaking of, if you have not seen the movie "PCU" I highly recommend it).

Anyhow, I am super-stressed about this meeting for reasons I have no desire to go into, BUT its postponement did cause me to fall a little bit off the wagon.  I went and bought a bunch of bad good.

But wait - before you get mad - I ate just a little and threw away the rest!  AND I did not go into the trash can after it later.

Ug - if I can just get through this meeting everything might be ok.

Yeah, I know something else will come up to take its place - its like you exhale and then - LOOK - aliens invading the earth and killing everyone over the age of 35 who do not have a skill set useful to them.  Looks like another excuse to eat - because what if they do kill me - do I really want my last meal to be califlower?  But what if the desired skill-set is an unusual ability to retain useless facts?  And they want someone who has a healthly lifestyle?

Ok - gotta run - thanks for all the tips and support - please keep it up.

Small Advances

Yay - I FINALLY had a good day!  I ate right, exercised and was good to myself.  Hope to make it one more (I have a stressful meeting at 2 that could degenerate into a smorgasboard of ice cream, but I am hoping for the best!)

Played with my Wii Fit and I have lost 2 lbs. in the last month - granted that sucks, but considering I wasn't REALLY trying I'm ok with it...

On the topic of the Wii Fit, I love the thing, but does it seriously have to fatten you up when it weighs you?  And with the fat music (bum, da, bum, bum), your little Mii shaking its head in shame at its Wii age of 40?  Its seriously depressing - although I do want to work hard enough to see my little Mii get skinner.  It also needs a new haircut, but thats a different blog.

Ok, back to work - I might stop back in at three depending on my meeting...

New Life Resolution

So I did fairly horrible over the Holiday.  I could offer a bunch of excuses (one of the most horrible professional issues EVER; friends in town; creme brulee cheesecake) but the bottom line is that I allowed myself to cave into excuses to eat.  Therefore I have NOT decided on a New Year's resolution, but on a New Life resolution.

What I find interesting, is that I quit smoking in 2009.  Really wasn't that hard.  I don't crave cigarette.  How can quitting bad food be harder that smoking?  I don't know - but it is.  I used to smoke in my car.  I found myself EATING in my car instead - what the hell?  So no more eating in the car.  Or on the couch.  I need to make myself sit and have a meal!  Seriously, its like I'm my cat, doesn't really matter if the food is in the bowl or on the ground, I'll eat it anywhere.  And please rub my belly.

I will continue to look on to you all for support and plan to update this more often with progress.

Happy New Life