WHHHHHYYYYYY!!!!

My computer has crashed, my boss is an idiot, I hate my staff, my apartment is a disaster area.

I want to go home.

If I needed reasons to stick with it, today's the day...

Eh...

Ok, I had the warm nuts - but other than the flight I stuck to the plan.

My Dad says that if I lose weight I am smart enough to be president of a Fortune 500 company.  I told him, that seemed like a good reason to keep the weight on...

So it looks like my Mom wants Chipotle today - so challenge on....

I'm worried about Warm Nuts

So I started Jenny today, and while my breakfast scramble was a fair size, my Turkey Club panini was more of a minini.

But the real challenge?  Three flights in the next 6 days.

Sitting in first class
Watching the peons behind
I anticipate my warm nuts
The pistachios and cashews I hunt to find
Then the main course
A burger, pasta or chicken?
Will they have my selection
No doubt it will be finger lickin!
Then the smell - that beautiful smell
Are they sugar, chocolate chip or oatmeal?
No matter - on American I'm a VIP
They'll give me one of each, its a sure deal
Of this I must divorce
Or need a seat-belt extender
Could there be anything worse?
THIS IS WHAT I MUST REMEMBER!

JENNNNNNYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

First and foremost - thanks to all my friends who have been diligently checking this and telling me to blog more!  I really appreciate your support and am NOT happy to report my progress (or lack-there of).  Reality?  I've been good some days and bad others.  I just can't seem to get into the groove of actually losing weight - I don't know why.  But, I'm no quitter, so per my Mom's prodding, I have joined Jenny Craig.

Actually, I subscribe to Consumer Reports (BEST $40 EVER - I'm happy to share my loggin and password if anyone wants it) and for the first time Jenny is shown to be more successful than Weight Watchers.  Since Weight Watchers hasn't been working, I'm going with this.

BUT - can we say EXPENSIVE!!!!  Holy cow!  And my Mom keeps warning me about the size of the portions.  I'm picturing a turkey sandwich the size of an M&M.  Yum!

But maybe spending this money is what I need to get my fat ass in gear!  So friends - I REALLY need your support in understanding if I join you for a meal, but don't eat, seeing as I had my oh-so-filling Turkey sandwich M&M.

I get the meals tonight, so I'll "officially" start tomorrow - when I fly to Dallas for a shower and then onto DC - great timing right?  But when is the timing ever good?

On the bright side, I'll have my family there to help keeping me from eating a Manchaca burrito at 11pm.  And hopefully I'll have more willpower than to tell them to Frak off cause I'm eating it anyways!

Also think I'm going to have my trainer take a picture of my in my bathing suit.  I'll label it properly so you don't confuse it with a beached whale.

Ok, back to work....

Jenny and I are like peas and peas, I guess.

And I forgot my mascara!

So I'm in DC and I haven't done great - but I have not done horribly either.  Problem is - its restaurant week!  Best restaurants in the city and you get a fixed menu for $20.  Duck Fat fries!  DUCK FAT FRIES!  I had to TRY them!  But the bright side is that I did just TRY them - they were not as good as I might have thought...

I also did some yoga yesterday and walked to my meeting.  Tomorrow I've got a racquetball game scheduled and I hope to keep my eating in check...

One step forward...

So I had a bad weekend - mostly dealing with work, but it carried over into my being a slug on the couch - now I am paying the price - back is KILLING me!

Things are better now, and I hope to re-focus...

Horoscope

Good I hope today's is true!

You may be frustrated by what seems like a lack of progress, but rest assured -- success is just around the corner. Even the most daunting obstacles are about to melt away.

Getting Better!

Another good day yesterday - ate well and went swimming.  I'm still SUPER stressed (and my meeting has been moved to NEXT week!), but I am trying to handle it well.  I'd feel a great deal better if my stupid travel to DC would get approved - I am supposed to leave on Wed. and I have crap to take care of - just because I don't have kids does not mean I don't have things to take care of in my personal life.

Ok, good, but boring news - thanks again for all the support

A Wash....

Don't have a lot of time before my next meeting, but...

My meeting was postponed until tomorrow, so I'm on PINS AND NEEDLES until then (speaking of, if you have not seen the movie "PCU" I highly recommend it).

Anyhow, I am super-stressed about this meeting for reasons I have no desire to go into, BUT its postponement did cause me to fall a little bit off the wagon.  I went and bought a bunch of bad good.

But wait - before you get mad - I ate just a little and threw away the rest!  AND I did not go into the trash can after it later.

Ug - if I can just get through this meeting everything might be ok.

Yeah, I know something else will come up to take its place - its like you exhale and then - LOOK - aliens invading the earth and killing everyone over the age of 35 who do not have a skill set useful to them.  Looks like another excuse to eat - because what if they do kill me - do I really want my last meal to be califlower?  But what if the desired skill-set is an unusual ability to retain useless facts?  And they want someone who has a healthly lifestyle?

Ok - gotta run - thanks for all the tips and support - please keep it up.

Small Advances

Yay - I FINALLY had a good day!  I ate right, exercised and was good to myself.  Hope to make it one more (I have a stressful meeting at 2 that could degenerate into a smorgasboard of ice cream, but I am hoping for the best!)

Played with my Wii Fit and I have lost 2 lbs. in the last month - granted that sucks, but considering I wasn't REALLY trying I'm ok with it...

On the topic of the Wii Fit, I love the thing, but does it seriously have to fatten you up when it weighs you?  And with the fat music (bum, da, bum, bum), your little Mii shaking its head in shame at its Wii age of 40?  Its seriously depressing - although I do want to work hard enough to see my little Mii get skinner.  It also needs a new haircut, but thats a different blog.

Ok, back to work - I might stop back in at three depending on my meeting...

New Life Resolution

So I did fairly horrible over the Holiday.  I could offer a bunch of excuses (one of the most horrible professional issues EVER; friends in town; creme brulee cheesecake) but the bottom line is that I allowed myself to cave into excuses to eat.  Therefore I have NOT decided on a New Year's resolution, but on a New Life resolution.

What I find interesting, is that I quit smoking in 2009.  Really wasn't that hard.  I don't crave cigarette.  How can quitting bad food be harder that smoking?  I don't know - but it is.  I used to smoke in my car.  I found myself EATING in my car instead - what the hell?  So no more eating in the car.  Or on the couch.  I need to make myself sit and have a meal!  Seriously, its like I'm my cat, doesn't really matter if the food is in the bowl or on the ground, I'll eat it anywhere.  And please rub my belly.

I will continue to look on to you all for support and plan to update this more often with progress.

Happy New Life