Mmmmm....Brownies

A PICTURE of a brownie made my salivate!  A PICTURE!  Then it occured to me, that if the picture looked so good, then maybe I should just eat it as opposed to a real brownie.

Darn it - I want that brownie!

Anyhow, I ate out for lunch and kept it to 7 points - this is HUGE for me.  I usually go out and eat all of my 27 points in one sitting.

On that note, did you know that a Bloomin Onion from Outback is 72 points?  I see no point in continuing to live...

Last night I went to get an MRI - and since I have PROMISED you all (and myself) to tell the truth - here it is, warts and all...

So they take me in the back and have me put on a hospital gown and scrub pants.  The pants were so small that I could not even tie them and I had a fair chance of ripping the butt when I sat down.  So needless to say, I felt VERY fat and my mind started to worry that maybe I was too fat for the MRI and they were going to have to send me to a horse MRI.  Then I started to worry that I might get stuck in the MRI and they'd have to call the fire department and cut "the fat girl in the MRI" out.  Then I wondered what would happen if the machine broke while I was in it - or even worse, the technician decided to quit while I was in there and nobody ever found me.  What if there was an earthquake and I was strapped down inside this little tube?  What if the earthquake spawned a tsunami?

All of this because I was too fat for the pants...

Anyhow, the MRI DID break, but not while I was in it, but it did delay my departure until about 6:30 (FYI - I had about half a foot of clearance, so I dodged the horsey MRI this time!).  Anyhow, I had the pot luck and a work-out.  Guess which one I blew off?  I was SO frakin hungry I went home and made the brownies.  And I'd be lying if I said I didn'y help to clean the bowl.

I thought about coming in here and blowing smoke up your rears with what a great job I did, but that would defeat the purpose of this and, more importantly, it is very disrespectful to all of you who are pulling for me.

When I get THAT hungry its like I'm a machine and I can't the food into my mouth fast enough.  The threat of a horsey MRI isn't even enough.

In addition, today has been a bust - had to deal with some difficult HR issues and the comfort food reflex kicked right in.

Times like this I figure I should just give up.

Thanks!

I am I total chicken!  I decided NOT to email everyone when I woke up, so I was going to delete it when I got to work.  However, I was distracted (I'm sure it was something shiny) and next thing I know its gone - BUT------

Wow!  So much support all ready!  Several people said they love me just the way I am - problem is, there is WAYmore of my the love!

So today didn't start out great - spilled coffee, fighting with AMEX - super busy and have to move my office - but I started the day with grape nuts (which I am fairly certain are JUST 4 points!).  Have to go out to lunch today, so that will be a challenge.  Any suggestion on steering away from the burgler is appreciated!

The BIG challenge is that I am going to bake my caramel brownies for a pot-luck tomorrow.  How does one NOT lick the bowl?  Its like they are free calories...  I think I'm going to have the cover the bowl in something gross like maynoisse (yes I know I can't spell - I'll work on that fault next!).  You'd think I could just walk away from it and use will-power - but trust me, I've dug things out of the garbage before, so not only do I need to throw stuff away I must render it TOTALLY inedible!

BTW - if you want to be notified of when I post something new (which would be great, cause it may be a moment of: "Tell me why I shouldn't eat the brownie that's 348 days old, as opposed to the fresh carrots"), there is a link called "follow" on the left-hand side.

Ok, guess I should go back to work so I can afford to eat all the stuff I can't afford to eat!

So it Begins

So tonight, I was going all awesome with my diet when I came across the fact that the popcorn I was so healthily consuming is 10!!!!! Weight Watchers points per bag! And I've had 2 of them today. I should have just eaten ice cream.

So, I decided that I need help and motivation from my friends (and maybe strangers) to move this along. This blog will be my sounding board - and I PROMISE to relay every success, failure and craving.

Good luck to me!!